blogherxiety.

in just a couple days i'll be goin' back to cali, cali, cali for this blogher dealy i mentioned a little while back... and as the time draws nearer i've sensed my social anxiety threatening to squelch my otherwise anticipated good time. which would be a major downer.
so here's a few things i've been repeating, mantra-like, to myself in an attempt to hold the forces of darkness at bay (feel free to borrow/modify to suit your own anti-anxiety needs):

*i expect no one to have even heard of me, let alone to have read my blog. i realize i am a nobody within blogdom, and embrace that.

*this is the first and only time i have been away solo-style from my husband and/or daughter in 5 years. so get the fuck out of my way if you plan on harshing my buzz in any manner whatsoever. dude.

*imbibing of various psychoactive substances [cough] will be a priority, as will laughing until i almost wet myself (these two facets of my weekend plan may or may not be related), even if i have to do these things alone. gawdammit.

*there are people going to this that i'd like to meet, but if they aren't accessible i'll be ok with that. i'm not one to throw myself at peoples, so in all likelihood i'll end up hanging back and not approaching certain someones. BUT THAT'S OK. I'M OK WITH THAT. REALLY.

*i will be on an inspired and vigorous quest to have fun. so you can get on the sweetney party train or not, but the train is leaving the station regardless.

*say it with me: FUN FUN FUN!

did that sound convincing?

but really, i'm a nice person. do say hello, won't you?

Comments

[jenB]

i am totally on the train and i will hoot my horn at you!

coincidence: i lost my virginity on California Avenue!

[Sour Duck]

:D Very funny post! Yes, that did sound convincing. I like the FUN FUN FUN mantra, I can imagine mentally chanting that as I go in the building on Saturday...

I'm going to try and slough off my introversion at the event. And there's no doubt about it, I cannot be cool around people whose blogs I love to read, so I'm ready to do the "no-dignity-I-MUST-speak-with-you!" thing. :) That's what it's all about, anyways, isn't it? "Networking", as they call it.

[hink]

I dare you to moon the first person who snobs you up.

[styro]

i was totally gonna say that JenB is totally on your train. your blog rules school. :)