Long Distance Dedication

For a good friend of mine who is going through a rough patch at the moment, with much love.

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move.
Awake, but cannot open my eyes.
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs, I know I can't breathe.
And hope someone will save me this time.
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time.
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that God never blessed her insides.
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting
Things and crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying.

And sometimes when you're on, you're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along and they love you.
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence.

But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to and you'll show up to work with a smile
You'll be better and you'll be smarter and more grown up
And a better daughter or son and a real good friend
And you'll be awake, you'll be alert, you'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
You'll be a real good listener, you'll be honest, you'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful.
You'll be happy.

Your ship may be coming in.
You're weak, but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below.
And your ship may be coming in.
You're weak, but not giving in.
And you'll fight it, you'll go out fighting all of them

That is all.

Comments

[Kelly]

hey, dude. even if this was directed toward someone else, I really appreciated it. I needed it BADLY today.

Today is no good.
Today should die.

[Amalah]

*mwah*

[jess]

That was so beautiful.

[other sweetney]

thanks for using my life theme song as a long distance dedication to someone else! but also thanks to the medication for this not so much being my theme song anymore... long live chemistry

[BaltimoreGal]

I think we could all use this right now. From mid-January to the end of February is always serious funk time for me. Thank god for antidepressants, seriously.

[Angela]

Holy smokes, I'm sure this wasn't for me, but I've been listening to that song about twice a day for WEEKS, because it's part of my don't-go-completely-around-the-fucking-bend ritual.

Everyone I know is paddling so furiously out of the undertow. Fuck winter, man.

[Kyran]

at times like these i feel like so matronly and out of it....I had to go google a snatch of the lyrics to find out who this was. you know, what you kids are listening to these days.

i had been wondering what to do with my itunes xmas gift card; maybe some JL and WT is in order

love the above comment about the undertow...I wrote about the same thing today, also with a marine metaphor. great minds?

[sweetney]

kyran -- totally my fault for not including the artist's name (Rilo Kiley) and the song title ("A Better Son/Daughter"). and yeah, i'm definitely scrambling, trying to pull out from the undertow as well... sigh. how long until spring?